Tuesday, August 29, 2006

stars.......

Hi paui

Have you ever experienced the joy of staring into a clear
night sky, awestruck by the incredible sight of a zillion
sparkling stars?

What about the thrill of seeing a shooting star, for a
fleeting moment, burning so brightly, then ... gone?

Do you get the same buzz I do?

What is it about stars, that evoke such wonderful feelings?

Gazing at a star-studded night sky is a truly beautiful and
hypnotic experience.

There is a magic and wonder about the stars and many of us
are familiar with the phrase ‘wish upon a star’.

What would you wish for right now? If you were to wish for
it, would you believe it could ever come true?

I wanted to share with you the magic I have experienced by
focusing on The Star card when it has come up in my
readings.

Wishing upon a star is at the heart of The Star card’s
meaning. It is a card of optimism, hope and unexpected
gifts. When this magical card comes up in a reading for
you it heralds a time of more positive opportunities and
happy outcomes.

This card is welcome almost anywhere in a reading as it is
a good indication that your wishes will be fulfilled,
sometimes not always as you would expect, and this card can
bring one or more unexpected gifts your way.

When it appears it can mean you are being too negative or
pessimistic, and it encourages you to have more hope and
optimism in your heart and mind, which is why I asked the
question earlier – 'if you did make a wish, would you
believe it could come true?'

I have wished upon The Star card many times and my
spirits always lift when it appears in my readings. I
recall in early spring of 2002 making a wish to be
given an opportunity to work with the Tarot with as many
people as possible, sharing a gift that was mutually
beneficial for my clients and myself.

It was a big dream and a big wish for at that time I
couldn’t see how I could achieve it, but I did BELIEVE I
would. Then in May of 2002, I met David, the talented
webmaster of Lotus Tarot, and as they say, the rest is
history :-)

The Star card has been a frequent feature in my readings
for most of the last year and I know why: because I have
received so many unexpected surprises and gifts, not just
in money and material things, but also friendships and
love.

If you haven’t taken much notice of this card before, look
out for it now, and when it comes up, make your wish!!
Remember, a wish made with hope and belief can bring so much
more power and magic to it.

Love and Joy,
Alison


>>>> i guess the timing is right again... ive been wishing for true happiness but all i get is sadness... maybe because i just keep on wishing for it while doing nothing... lately ive been so focused in my studies that didnt notice that i have been taking advantage over my own body... ive been pushing myself to the limit... staying awake til dawn just to finish papers... not eating on time so i wont have a bulging tummy during a shoot... sometimes not eating at all specially when i have to study for a quiz or an exam... but i get mental block because i was too hungry to remember all the things that i have been trying to memorize... now that i am unofficially a graduate... and i have more free time, i want to channel all my unused energy to sports... i was not like this at all when i was still playing sports... i might not be able to play in a team anymore but at least i want to exercise... i dont want to have moments where i would just think of things that would make me cry... i want to be stress free... i remember when i was still in high school, i was always full of energy and full of life... but now that i dont get to do any exercise activities, i am always sad, annoyed, stressed and i cant sleep at night... now i am going to change m routine... i need to get back in shape... i miss the old me... i am not just going to wish for happiness... i am going to do things that would make me really happy!!

Monday, August 28, 2006

ordinary song

Just an ordinary song
To a special girl like you
From a simple guy
That's so in love with you

I may not have much to show
No diamonds that glow
No limosines
To take you where you go.

But if you give to find youself
Fight in all the games you play
When the world seems so unfair
You can count on me to stay
Just take sometime
And lend an ear
To this ordinary song

Just an ordinary song
To a special girl like you
From a simple guy
That's so in love with you

I don't even have the looks
To make you glance my way
The clothes i wear
They just seem so absurd

But deep inside of me is you
You give life to what I do
All those years may see you through
Still i'll be waiting here for you
If you have time
Please lend an ear
To this ordinary song

Just an ordinary song
To a special girl like you
From a simple guy
That's so in love with you


>>>> the first time i heard this song
on the radio i thought it was another
opm that sucks... but then they would
always play it in the radio in boracay..
after a while i listened to the lyrics and
realized that it was a sweet song... i do
nt really wish for a prince charming
who would take me to far far away...
i just want a simle life, i just want someone
who will dream with me, take me
somewhere i've never been before and
love me for who i am... i know we
should really be careful of what we
wish for but i really wish that i find
my simple guy.

Sunday, August 27, 2006

sometimes you have to make your own rainbows

when you see old pictures you cant help but smile while reminiscing about the past... when you read old letters you laugh because you realize how silly you were back then. although you like keeping them in a box and looking at them once in a while but you know that you have to throw most of them away, for sometimes they only mean more pain... you belive that life is unfair, when you are doing great on one part of your life, the other parts come crashing down. happiness only lasts for a day and the day after but the next thing you'll know problems will seep back in. there is always a struggle for your freedom but once you are free you miss being tied up. when its too hot you wish for some clouds to cover the sun and when it gets really cloudy you pray that it doesnt rain... but most of the time it pours..... really hard. sometimes youreally have to make your own rainbows because you really cannot control anything but your own life, there is no one who will always be there... in fact there is no one but you. no one will ever make things better, for they will only make things worse.

Saturday, August 26, 2006

what do you think of my new hair?
please feel free to leave your comments.....

busted chargers, long papers, unanswered calls and over fatigue

yeah... i've been really really busy... i actually like it but then my body cant seem to cope up with the hectic schedule that i've been following all week. i studied for my exams, i was invited to be a judge for "circle of 10" contest (which by the way lasted for 4 hours! tsk tsk tsk...) had to pick up stuff, run some errands for my mom and more...my body seems to be giving up, i feel so weak, my runny nose still continues on running (lolz) and i am getting thinner and thinner... physically i'm still okay, mentally.... i dont know! i have this big big problem, i tend to overload on information that sometimes i cannot handle... so i just end u thinking about it... but in the end nothing changed, i try my best to absorb other people's advice but i end up taking the wrong advice... i know i should rely on my own decisions (well i do most of the time) but since i have lots of things in my mind i just close my eyes and follow what others would say. sometimes it helps but there are times that things get worse.... after all this mess i want to go to the beach to unwind, clear my mind off things that i shouldnt be thinking about and stop thinking about those people who i should be forgetting... the more i try to at least make up for my own mistakes all the more it gets worst... i dont want to just go on without really resolving the past but as i try to solve the riddles i get more and more caught up in the maze. its almost over... i'm crossing the river... i'm in the "real" world now... i hope that things will be better, but if its not then i am aready to draw my sword and charge to battle....

busted chargers, long papers, unanswered calls and over fatigue

yeah... i've been really really busy... i actually like it but then my body cant seem to cope up with the hectic schedule that i've been following all week. i studied for my exams, i was invited to be a judge for "circle of 10" contest (which by the way lasted for 4 hours! tsk tsk tsk...) had to pick up stuff, run some errands for my mom and more...my body seems to be giving up, i feel so weak, my runny nose still continues on running (lolz) and i am getting thinner and thinner... physically i'm still okay, mentally.... i dont know! i have this big big problem, i tend to overload on information that sometimes i cannot handle... so i just end u thinking about it... but in the end nothing changed, i try my best to absorb other people's advice but i end up taking the wrong advice... i know i should rely on my own decisions (well i do most of the time) but since i have lots of things in my mind i just close my eyes and follow what others would say. sometimes it helps but there are times that things get worse.... after all this mess i want to go to the beach to unwind, clear my mind off things that i shouldnt be thinking about and stop thinking about those people who i should be forgetting... the more i try to at least make up for my own mistakes all the more it gets worst... i dont want to just go on without really resolving the past but as i try to solve the riddles i get more and more caught up in the maze. its almost over... i'm crossing the river... i'm in the "real" world now... i hope that things will be better, but if its not then i am aready to draw my sword and charge to battle....

Wednesday, August 23, 2006

Top 11 Signs You're Becoming A Geek

Top 11 Signs You're Becoming A Geek

11. Monitor tan. >>>>> hell yeah! haha! GOT THIS!

10. Before heading to the bathroom you inform your friends you're off
to download and log out.

9. You become physically ill at the mention of the RIAA, and visibly
excited at the mention of object-oriented programming.

8. You have a poster on your wall of the Linux penguin.

7. You're mad because all your friends got goodnight kisses after prom,
but your sister just slugged you in the arm and said "Thanks, bro."

6. You think having twice as many computers as there are people in the
house is a bare minimum.

5. You feel that living life like the movie "tron" wouldn't be so bad.

4. In your little black book, you list (both) the girls you know in
order by IP address.

3. You can type faster than you can speak >>>> YEP YEP YEP! hehehehe

2. When your shrink says "Mother . . . " you say " . . . Board."

1. If, by some happy accident, you someday have kids, you want to name
them after your favorite fonts. >>>>> yeah.... thought of that! :D


Tuesday, August 22, 2006

......rainy days & some days

there are times when i want to cry really really hard...specially when i get really disappointed with the things that are happening to to me. i dont know... i am supposed to be stronger now but the tears just keep on flowing... i cant even explain how i feel right now.... i am sooooo sad.... my tears wont stop... my heart is bursting with pain... i really want to get out of here... i want to move on...get out of this life....

Monday, August 21, 2006

Bingo!





























we played bingo at my neighbor's wake the other night. there were lots of people playing different games... cards, bingo, "sungka" and other stuff. my mom would always go there everynight and play, Aling Vicky (the deceased) didnt have any relatives so the neighbors alternately stayed there to accompany the husband of the deceased. his name is Mang Tobing, he also didnt have any contacts with his relatives... last night i just passed by there to watch but i didnt stay long because people were finished playing bingo and it was raining hard.... the next morning, my mom told me that mang tobing was standing there beside the casket staring at his wife... one of thier close neighbors joked around and said "Mang tobing miss mo na agad si aling vicky ah...." he just smiled and went inside... then after a while my mom said that they heard him cry. my mom said that he must miss her so much.. they've been together for more than 40 years already and they have never been apart... its good that there are still people who visits him at night because of the wake... but what will happen after aling vicky has already been buried? mang tobing will be alone... i'm sure that wil be a lot harder than being left by someone... i really wish that i may find my own "mang tobing" who will love and respect me as his own "aling vicky"...

Sunday, August 20, 2006

do i need a reason.....

Today when I saw you
I knew it was just like the first time
When you met my eyes I came close
And I felt like the first time

To hold back my fear
and feel you so near
I've never been this far before
To hold back my fear
and feel you so near
I'm scared of falling into deep this time

Do I need a reason to tell you why
I'm singing you this song
Do I need a reason to show you that
I know where I belong
Whenever I am weary I lean on
this feeling that I have
I am so much stronger now
Thankful, yes I am

Today I'll renounce them,
the doubts and the fears I've been nursing
I'll fly like a moth to the flame
and I'll feel like the first time

To hold back my fear
and let you come near
I've never been this far before
To hold back my fear
and let you come near
I'm afraid of loosing and still I go

yes i am stronger now...i like this feeling... but then there are times that the barriers that i have created lets some of my weaknesses to seep back in...once again i fall down to my knees, helpless and in pain... but there are still some of the barriers left so i can still find refuge from those barriers that are still standing strong and unscathed by the past that is trying to get into the barriers that i have created...i just hope that they remain as sturdy as i want them to be...but then one by one these barriers are bent by my own rules... by my own thoughts... my own words... and my own actions... i never should've allowed the great pain to come again... i m just hurting myself... i'm must pushing myself deeper in the quicksand that i cannot get out of...... i hope someday i can really say that i am really free and i can once again walk my own path towards what i really want to be....

Saturday, August 19, 2006

vanity













different sides of me.... Vanity is one of the deadly sins and here are the results of one quiz i took

Greed:Very High

Gluttony:High

Wrath:Very High

Sloth:Medium

Envy:High

Lust:Very High

Pride:High



Take the Seven Deadly Sins Quiz

Thursday, August 17, 2006

my mistakes, sexual harassment & birthday greetings


.....sometimes i do things without thinking about it first and then the next thing i know.....im already running on autopilot.....gosh! when will i learn? when! :( well as i always say, i deserve what i am experiencing right now....im not saying that i am being punished i just think that this is the result of my previous mistakes... i did serious things that changed the things that i am used to.... its okay.... i dont have any choice... i just have to wait and let the storm pass.....

its already 3:00 in the morning and i am not yet finished with my "sexual Harassment" report in Catholic Worship. its not that i'm having a hard time finishing it, its just that i am kinda intrigued by the articles that i am reading right now.

"34 Catholic priests have been suspended for sexual misconduct. The bad news is that there are scores, possibly hundreds, of others on whose heads the axe will fall. And the worst news is that there may be many who are getting away with just the mildest of reprimands from their superiors."

huwaaat?!? i didnt know that! well i guess its really hard for some these priests to resist temptation. these are just based on written cases...what about those who were not caught? who were still on the path to wrong doings? i did not write about this because i am condoning these priests... its just that its human nature to *you know?* not that they are actually performing these particular acts... keeping the vow of celibacy is kind of hard...well not really coz it did happen to me... i was celibate for quite some time...heheh

"priests who father a child or break their vow of celibacy may have to undergo some form of religious "rehabilitation."

just some form of religious rehabilitation? i think they should also go back to thier seminaries to re learn all thier vows and educate themselves on what and what they should not do. after all, they are priests! but then they are also humans.... i dont think they deserve to be punished (unless they raped somebody or something like that...) they only have to feel that these vows that they took are really important and they should set good examples to those who look up to them and who would want to be like them in the future.



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Wednesday, August 16, 2006

THE EMPEROR

Fear of failure is one of the most common reasons most
people are not getting what they want in life... if you're
afraid of failing, most likely you're not going to give it
your best shot, that's if you give it a shot at all!

There are many ways to overcome this fear, and although
that's not really the scope of this email, I'll give you at
least one way right now...

You need to change the way you think!

Sounds simple, but how do you do that?

Well, if you want to do it the easy way, then why not learn
from one of the best teachers in the world in this field,
Mike Mograbi.

Mike's course: 'Program Your Mind for Success in Record
Time!' is the simplest, easiest to follow, most effective
course we've seen yet.

Check it out here:

http://lotustarot.com/i2/e


I've done a lot of international traveling on my own recently.
It wasn’t an easy decision to make, to go off traveling on
my own, but as The Emperor kept appearing in my readings, I
knew I could make a success of it.

So to continue our look at the Major Arcana, I thought I’d
share some details about this very strong and dynamic card
with you, and how to better interpret his appearance in
your readings.

The Emperor can represent a man of significance in your
life, such as a husband or lover, or perhaps a father or
close friend. In a positive sense, the card signifies that
this man will stand by you and give you the support you
need.

The Emperor represents a powerful ally, someone who can
influence people and events in their own favor, and is
often a man of authority or position such as a boss, or
professional advisor.

If the Emperor appears amidst more negative cards however,
it may be a warning that a certain man is being too bossy
or domineering towards you, or perhaps you are the one
exhibiting these ‘qualities’ towards another.

Taking note of the cards that surround The Emperor in your
readings can help you understand whether the man it could
be representing is a positive or negative influence on your
life.

Alternatively, The Emperor’s appearance in your readings
may suggest that it is time for you to harness this
somewhat ‘masculine’ power within yourself and express your
own authority.

If you are faced with a key choice or decision and The
Emperor appears, it’s probably time for you to find the
courage and confidence required to influence people and
events in your favor and ensure your success.

The Emperor is often associated with Aries, which is a
strong and assertive astrological fire sign.

So look out for this powerful ally in your readings, and
allow yourself to show your strength and assertiveness when
it’s needed.

Love and Joy,
Alison

P.S. Don't forget to take a look at Mike's course:
'Program Your Mind for Success in Record Time!'
It really is the simplest, easiest to follow,
most effective course we've seen yet.

Use this link:

http://lotustarot.com/i2/e

haven't checked out the link yet...but i dont think i have to anymore. i used to be afraid to make choices, take chances and do stuff... now i am not really that super strong but i can handle stuff on my own and i think thats good for me

Sunday, August 13, 2006

music

Half Crazy Lyrics

Know I havent slept a week at all
Since you've been gone
And my eyes are kinda tired
From crying all night long
Know I've never been too good at cooking just for one
It's so lonely here without you darling
Come back home

'Cause I'm half crazy
Feelin' sorry for myself
Half crazy
Worried you'd find someone else to love

Know life hasnt been much fun at all
Since you've been gone
And my eyes being to feel
Each time I hear a sound
I spent every minute asking myself
What went wrong
Can't we try to talk it over baby
Come back home

'Cause I'm half crazy
Feelin' sorry for myself
Half crazy
Worried you'd find someone else to love
But baby there is no-one else
Half crazy
For everything you saying
Half crazy
No one else could love you like I do

(break)

'Cause I'm half crazy
Feelin' sorry for myself
Half crazy
Worried you'd find someone else to love
But baby there is no-one else
Half crazy
For everything you saying
Half crazy
No one else could ever love you
No one else could ever be

Half crazy
Feeling sorry for myself
And I'm worried you'll find someone else
Feeling sorry for myself
Half Crazy

-----------> my friend would always sing this to me whenever we have videoke sessions here at home. after lunch my mom turned on the magic sing and the fun started!

Saturday, August 12, 2006

shots that i took today...


i missed eating at wendy's! while waiting for my designer the lolas and i decided to go to wendy's for a while to eat (we were so freakin' hungry!) we had different orders... chen ordered chili rice, eve got a burger meal and ivy got somthing else while i got baked potato bacon and cheesE! wee! its was sooooo good! i also got a frostee for desert! :D we noticed that the serving was not as big as before and the prices increased! well that's life...everything goes up....

mohan.... my pamangkin! he was fast asleep when my cuz arrived in iloveyou store. so my cuz asked me to watch him for a while because she had to meet with the designers. he was so cute! we were tickling him but he was still asleep hehehe....they went to national museum with the kids from margaux's class so i bet he got really tired from playnig with the kids ;)

this morning when i woke up i felt so energized so i decided to take a picture of myself (it was already late...my class wat at 9am and i woke up at around 8!and i still had time to take some pics! VAIN!)

Thursday, August 10, 2006

the SUN!

As I was relaxing, enjoying the warm sun upon my face today
I thought about the joy, energy and vitality that sunshine
brings.

The same vitality, joy and energy can be found with your
inner sun, and knowing how to draw on this energy can help
you dispel your own dark clouds caused by mixed emotions
and confusion.

The Sun is one of my favorite Tarot cards as it is so
positive and joyful, and whenever it appears in my reading
it conjures up hope and joy in my heart.

The Sun suggests happiness through enjoying time with
family, friends and loved ones, or perhaps holidays and
celebrations - if you’re not enjoying yourself in such a
way, this card is suggesting you should!!

The Sun generally indicates good news concerning children,
and can herald the wonderful gift of the conception or
birth of a much wanted child, so if you are hoping for or
planning to start a family, look out for this card in your
readings.

It is a card of good health, joyful emotions and lust for
life – for me it represents the very essence of life at its
best.

It is our ability to let our own inner sun shine that can
make such a difference; we are naturally drawn to people
who are happy and positive - those with a ‘sunny
disposition’. When you can transcend negative thoughts and
feelings, and instead think and feel more positively, it
creates a totally different energy.

You can use the Lotus Chakra members’ reading to help focus
on your inner sun Chakra.

Look out for when the sun comes up in your readings, and
when it does ask yourself

‘Am I being positive and enthusiastic about my life?’
‘Do people see me as happy and joyful?’

When you have days where you cannot see through the clouds
of confusion or your heart weighs heavy with dark emotions,
look inwards and focus on letting your inner sun shine, and
dispel those negative thoughts and emotions.

Wednesday, August 09, 2006

stressed out!

yeah... i am stressed out... but its good! i love it! it takes my mind off things that i shouldnt really think about... one thing that i dont like about this is the physical fatigue... i am soooooo tired! i had a very long day! phew~ i slept late last night because i had to do some papers that was due today... this morning i woke up at around 10am, i had a shoot at pat dy's studio in greenhills at 1pm for inquirer so i pretty much didnt get enough sleep...but anyways, i left the house early because i didnt want to be late for work (since this was the first time i was going to work with these people i wanted to make a good impression) so i got there at around 1pm... yey! i was just in time! the stylist was not there yet but benjiestarted with the makeup already while nathan was doing my hair... everything was kinda fast so we finished makeup by 2pm and started the shoot by 2:20! we had to shoow 5 layouts but it was cool... so we finished the entire shoot by 4! :D (YEY!) after that i had to hurry so i wont be late for my 6pm class... i really didnt have time to eat anymore...i went straight to class (businco)...we had a quiz but i was pretty confident because i was the one who reported about that quiz.... after that was my finamgt class.... before going home i was able to squeeze in a cocktail event at embassy... don invited me to attend the absolut raspberri launch. they had "free drinks" so i decided to pass by and have a taste of the absolut raspberri! :D its was and open bar event so i had access to unlimited drinks until 12mn. i got really tipsy so i decided to go home and work on my report in religion which is about sexual harassment... i am running out of ideas so i decided to write on my blog first ;) now that i am done i will go back to finishing my religion report.... nytnyt!

Tuesday, August 08, 2006

Addiction....

its been a long time since i last had the time to sit down, relax and drink beer. i miss drinking beer! not that i am addicted to drinking but it just relaxes me and helps ward off stress... yeah i had a great massage last sunday but today was sooooooo tiring! i had to wakeup early to finish my video presentation for our business meeting in businco, i had to write the main points that i should give out to my groupmates so they wont get lost within the presentation... finamgt was also toxic coz the teacher already handed out the last quiz that we had and voila! i failed! :( i got really annoyed that my classmates who cheated passed the exam! i forgot the formula! haizzzzz....well soon ill be able to drink again... maybe after graduation i'll go to boracay to rest and relax....before applying for a job and facing the battle of "real life"

Sunday, August 06, 2006

time for relaxation

i was at home the entire afternoon.. studying,, eating,, watching tv and surfing the net..my mom wanted to go to the spa to have a massage... but she wanted to go there in the evening so we can go right to sleep after. we tried this new place (well it actually opened 7 months ago, but it was new for me :D.. the name of the spa is SESITRA, our former spa closed already so we had to transfer to a new one.) it was nice and the people were nice too... what i liked about this place is that they had a room for two people, the spa that we used to go to before only had a sinlge bed in every room that they had but this one had two beds in a room (sorta "couples room") so my mom and i liked the fact that we were going to be massaged in the same room... the first thing we had was the body scrub... it was oooooooooh so realxing! (they used this citrusy oil mixed with sea salt) it felt soooooo great! i think i am going to be one of thier regular customers... so anyways it was great.. after the body scrub, which lasted for like an hour, i took a warm bath (to remove all the oil and salt) and then the masseuse proceeded with the aromatherapy massage... at first it was kinda painful so i told the masseuse to make it a little lighter and voila! i fell asleep! when she reached my lower back i got tickled so i woke up, the massage was really good so i fought the urge to sleep and just feel every stroke of the massage...it was an entirely relaxing activity that my mom and i shared, it was more of a bonding time for us... we talked about me, the men in our lives and other stuff...

i talked to my mom about this "thing" and she said that most of the sad things that happened to me was actually my fault... not that she was blaming me for that but she said that its hard for her to see me cry... she didnt want me to get hurt but withthe things that i have been doing she wont be surprised if things wont be as great as she hoped it would be... she told me that she wants the best for me (of course) she also wants me to always be taken care of all the time... she said that i had found somebody who will dothat for me, who showed be selfless love and who were there no matter what but i kept on asking for more, not knowing that i already have the best... well i dont know... maybe the best wants somebody better... after all that happened i too wouldnt be surprised if sh*t will happen... yeah sh*t does happen so i guess i just have to let go or else it would hurt a lot more than i think it will....

i got this story in one of the forums that i post in...its a nice read and i'm sure people can relate to this... specially the women!


Husband Store

A store that sells husbands has just opened in New York City, where a woman
may go to choose a husband.
Among the instructions at the entrance is a description of how the store
operates. You may visit the store ONLY ONCE !

There are six floors and the attributes of the men increase as the shopper
ascends the flights. There is, however, a catch . . .. you may choose any
man from a particular floor, or you may choose to go up a floor, but you
cannot go back down except to exit the building! So, a woman goes to the
Husband Store to find a husband . .

On the first floor the sign on the door reads:
Floor 1 - These men have jobs and love the Lord.

The second floor sign reads:
Floor 2 - These men have jobs, love the Lord, and love kids.

The third floor sign reads:
Floor 3 - These men have jobs, love the Lord, love kids, and are extremely
good looking.
"Wow," she thinks, but feels compelled to keep going.
She goes to the fourth floor and sign reads:

Floor 4 - These men have jobs, love the Lord, love kids, are drop- dead good
looking and help with the housework.
"Oh, mercy me!"she exclaims, "I can hardly stand it!"
Still, she goes to the fifth floor and sign reads:

Floor 5 - These men have jobs, love the Lord, love kids, are drop- dead
gorgeous, help with the housework, and have a strong romantic streak.
She is so tempted to stay, but she goes to the sixth floor and the sign
reads:

Floor 6 - You are visitor 4,363,012 to this floor.
There are no men on this floor. This floor exists solely as proof that women
are impossible to please.

Thank you for shopping at the Husband Store. Watch your step as you exit the
building, and have a nice day!

Saturday, August 05, 2006

my new toy......

yeah... i am sad... so i need a new toy! actually i really didnt plan for this one it just so happened that i wanted a moto RAZR but then it wouldnt really fit my budget so i told myself that i will just get myself a RAZR if i have extra money...but then this one came and i just couldnt resist it! it was really cute and i wanted one too so i just closed my eyes and bought it right away... well so far i am enjoying it! :D

today has been a really busy day, i had to start my day early because i had a 9am class but i woke up late so i got to school at around 9:20... good thing the teacher was also verrry late and she got there at around 10am... we were supposed to have an exam but she cancelled it so we just discussed some more stuff from the book and had recitations. during lunch break, i went to max to play... monsters game and tech warriors...i went back to school before 1 for my next class... i was supposed to attend a fitting for this show but i had to go home first to take a nap (coz i was really really really tired!) i woke up late already after that so i didnt bother to follow....
now i am awake and i guess i would pretty much stay awake til around midnight... i like what is happening to me... i like it so much when i get busy... i forget things (in a good way tho...) maybe i will keep it this way.... its tiring but it is surely fun!

Friday, August 04, 2006

dreams.....

what are dreams all about? some say that dreams fortell the future, some say that it came from the past and others would say that dreams just came from our subconscious mind.... i guess its just a pigment of our colorful imagination... but then when you really think of what you have dreamed about you cant help but really think about it. (well i think its ok to think.... just avoid dwelling on it) oh well, i had a really disturbing dream... it was the exact situation that i was scared of, and i asked the person involved and the person said that it was possible... so there... it was painful (really!)... now i am more confused than the past weeks... what happened? what was it? i dont know if it was real or just another part of my assumptions. i keep on thinking about what had transpired last week... i kept telling myself to just stop hoping... because hoping only hurts me more... i know i am not used to this kind of stuff this is actually a FIRST! and its really hard... i've been talking to a lot of people and i've been getting different answers... its soooo confusing... maybe for the meantime i will just focus on my school stuff its almost over... soon i will be happier! i know.... i will!

Thursday, August 03, 2006

the break up

a really nice movie... vince vaughn was hilarious! (even i would fall for him... lolz) the break up was not just any ordinary comedy, it was about the real thing.... simple arguments could turn into big problems and eventually breaking up... i like how the movie ended... it was realistic...

in this movie, vince was hopeless... he loved jen but then he really didnt make any effort to show her how much he loved her. i can relate to his character because in the previous relationships that i had, i was spoiled and i would always find a way to push for what i wanted... not taking into consideration what my other half would want... you start to realize things when the person you love the most is already gone... and that was the point when vince realized that he could have done things to avoid the breakup. same with me, now i am reminiscing about the past and how cruel i have been... i know i could have done things differently but the damage has been done... its not too late to change... and so far i am succeeding in correcting my flaws... soon things will be better... i hope

Wednesday, August 02, 2006

101 reasons why i love you

1. I love the way we finish each other's sentences.

2. I love the way I know you'll never give up on me.

3. I love the fact that I wouldn't ever give up on you.

4. I love the way you look at me.

5. I love how beautiful your eyes are.

6. I love the way I can't imagine a day without you in my life.

7. I love the way if we were ever separated I wouldn't know how to go on.

8. I love the way we cuddle and watch sunsets together.

9. I love the way we sometimes stay up all night and just talk, then watch the sunrise together.

10. I love how I know you'll always be there when I need you to be.

11. I love the fact that I will always be there for you too.

12. I love how when I dream of my life partner, the only person that I can see is you.

13. I love how complete I feel when I am with you.

14. I love how our bodies just fit together.

15. I love the way you make me laugh.

16. I love the way you laugh.

17. I love the way you won't compromise yourself when we are together.

18. I love the way you won't let me compromise myself.

19. I love your thoughtfulness.

20. I love your tenderness.

21. I love your ability to speak without saying a single word.

22. I love the way we glance at each other across the room and know what each other is thinking.

23. I love the way, how even though we may be miles apart I still feel like you're right here with me.

24. I love the way you surprise me with the perfect gifts that show you pay attention to me.

25. I love the way you'll watch a sporting game with me even though you may not be interested in it.

26. I love the way you treat my friends.

27. I love your love for the things that interest me.

28. I love the way you let me live my life freely without jealousy.

29. I love how you demand respect but are not controlling.

30. I love how I would do anything in this world to make you happy.

31. I love how you would do anything in this world to make me happy.

32. I love the way your voice sounds over the phone.

33. I love the way your voice sounds when you whisper sweet nothings in my ear.

34. I love the completeness and oneness I feel when we make love.

35. I love your sensuality.

36. I love how our romance feels like the perfect romance movie.

37. I love how you are my soul mate.

38. I love the way you handle troubled times.

39. I love the way you respect me.

40. I love the way you protect and defend me.

41. I love how you feel when we cuddle.

42. I love the softness of your lips against mine.

43. I love the softness of you lips against my body.

44. I love the feeling of your hair brushing against me when we make love.

45. I love laying in bed at night talking about nothing.

46. I love waking up to find we've been cuddling together all night.

47. I love the surprises you leave for me.

48. I love your intelligence.

49. I love your ingenuity.

50. I love your ability to make friends where ever we go.

51. I love your love for life.

52. I love your passion for your hobbies and interests.

53. I love how every time I look at you, you take my breath away.

54. I love how I thank God everyday for bringing someone as wonderful as you into my life.

55. I love the fact you gave me the gift of our children.

56. I love the special moments that we shared that will remain my fondest memories of you and I.

57. I love spending the holidays with the one person I love the most.

58. I love how my heart skips a beat whenever you walk into the room.

59. I love how you love me.

60. I love how I love you.

61. I love the ways you choose to show your affection for me.

62. I love the way you inspire me to be more than I am.

63. I love the way you spark my creativity and imagination.

64. I love the way you make me feel like anything is possible as long as I'm with you.

65. I love your sense of humor.

66. I love the way you make me feel like royalty.

67. I love the way you dress.

68. I love your understated elegance.

69. I love you just the way you are.

70. I love your spontaneity.

71. I love our life together.

72. I love how if I died right now I would be the happiest person alive knowing I found my one true love.

73. I love the fact that we will grow old together.

74. I love your way with words.

75. I love the way you look when your sleeping.

76. I love the way you think you look awful when you first wake up when it is actually then I find you the most beautiful.

77. I love your willingness to share everything and most especially your heart with me.

78. I love your strength of character.

79. I love taking showers together.

80. I love the way you leave me love notes to find whenever you're gone.

81. I love the way you treat me.

82. I love the way you take care of us.

83. I love your cooking.

84. I love the way you take the time to thank me for doing every day things.

85. I love the way you show your affection when we are around friends and/or family.

86. I love the way you are not scared to show your affection when we are in public.

87. I love your confidence.

88. I love your ability to make me feel better when times are tough.

89. I love the way we make up after a fight.

90. I love how you treat our children.

91. I love the way you support me when I'm off track.

92. I love the way you take the time to show me how much you love me.

93. I love your beautiful hair.

94. I love your body.

95. I love your openness to try new things.

96. I love your ability to talk things through.

97. I love your courage to be you.

98. I love your greatness.

99. I love the fact that you want to be with me and only me.

100. I love how I am and feel when I am with you!

101. I love you for you!

i got this from lovingyou.com.... i used to submit poems and quotes there... maybe if i get inspired to write again i will try to make poems and quotes that i can post here..

Tuesday, August 01, 2006

The Lovers

another card reading from alison....

I thought I’d address this particular issue today, as so
many of our visitors here at Lotus are looking for guidance
from the Tarot in such a situation.

The Lovers card is the card to look out for in your
readings; it represents a time of choice and dilemma that
could have a significant impact on your life.

You may be faced with a choice between suitors or lovers,
or whether to stay in a relationship/marriage or leave, and
when it comes to affairs of the heart, knowing which is the
right choice can be very difficult indeed.

The Lovers card signifies intimate relationships and
physical attraction to another, and it’s also about
struggling with temptation and establishing who or what you
really care about.

The emotion and desire associated with this card is
powerful and represents deep love. Sometimes it may not
refer to intimate relationships but to a force that draws
two entities together - people, ideas, events or groups.

The Lovers signifies a tough decision and is symbolic of
the need to overcome temptation when at a crossroads in
your life. This card suggests a need to maintain a firm
belief in yourself, and trust that your own moral values
and principles will show you the right path, even when
intoxicating forces are tempting you to take the wrong one.

Maturity and integrity are needed, as temptation to opt for
the ‘easier’ or ‘most exciting’ option may lead to hurt and
disappointment. However, The Lovers card suggests that
sometimes in life, taking a risk can promise greater reward
in love.

You may feel trapped and unhappy in a loveless relationship
or marriage and want to leave, yet you fear taking the
risk. However, letting go of a relationship that brings no
pleasure allows you to be free to attract new love into
your life. This is a risk that could well bring you
greater love and joy.

The risk or temptation that may not always prove so
positive is indulging in a sexual affair when married or in
a committed relationship. It’s true that sometimes we fall
out of love with our spouse or partner and in love with
someone else, and such choices can lead to new and more
fulfilling relationships, but such temptation can often
lead to trouble. Only you can be the judge of whether your
choices are right for you.

That’s easier said than done you might say!!! Of course
you’re right! That’s why The Lovers card represents a
dilemma, a time of choice that could have a major impact on
your life.

So when this card comes up in your reading and you have a
significant choice to make, look to your heart and core
values to help guide you to the right decision.

Love and Joy,
Alison


hmmmmmmmmmm... yeah she's right!! i highlighted the things i think that is soooo true... i'm not really a believer in these kinds of things but when you actually read it.. it does make sense! well yeah, i am faced with a great dilemma and yes i am afraid to take the risk! i know what i want but dies that person want me back? i am not used to being alone... but i have to try... i have to take the risk... even if the one that i really want is no longer available... i hope that i would be able to find somebody who will be perfect for me....

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