do i need a reason.....

Today when I saw you
I knew it was just like the first time
When you met my eyes I came close
And I felt like the first time

To hold back my fear
and feel you so near
I've never been this far before
To hold back my fear
and feel you so near
I'm scared of falling into deep this time

Do I need a reason to tell you why
I'm singing you this song
Do I need a reason to show you that
I know where I belong
Whenever I am weary I lean on
this feeling that I have
I am so much stronger now
Thankful, yes I am

Today I'll renounce them,
the doubts and the fears I've been nursing
I'll fly like a moth to the flame
and I'll feel like the first time

To hold back my fear
and let you come near
I've never been this far before
To hold back my fear
and let you come near
I'm afraid of loosing and still I go

yes i am stronger now...i like this feeling... but then there are times that the barriers that i have created lets some of my weaknesses to seep back in...once again i fall down to my knees, helpless and in pain... but there are still some of the barriers left so i can still find refuge from those barriers that are still standing strong and unscathed by the past that is trying to get into the barriers that i have created...i just hope that they remain as sturdy as i want them to be...but then one by one these barriers are bent by my own rules... by my own thoughts... my own words... and my own actions... i never should've allowed the great pain to come again... i m just hurting myself... i'm must pushing myself deeper in the quicksand that i cannot get out of...... i hope someday i can really say that i am really free and i can once again walk my own path towards what i really want to be....