Sunday, February 27, 2005

A well-known speaker started off his seminar

by holding up a $20.00 bill. In the room of 200, he asked,

"Who would like this $20 bill?"

Hands started going up.

He said, "I am going to give this $20 to one of you

but first, let me do this.

He proceeded to crumple up the $20 dollar bill.

He then asked, "Who still wants it?"

Still the hands were up in the air.

Well, he replied, "What if I do this?"

And he dropped it on the ground

and started to grind it into the floor with his shoe.

He picked it up, now crumpled and dirty.

"Now, who still wants it?"

Still the hands went into the air.

My friends, we have all learned a very valuable lesson.

No matter what I did to the money, you still wanted it

because it did not decrease in value.

It was still worth $20.

Many times in our lives,

we are dropped, crumpled, and ground into the dirt

by the decisions we make and

the circumstances that come our way.

We feel as though we are worthless.

But no matter what has happened or

what will happen, you will never lose your value.

Dirty or clean, crumpled or finely creased,

you are still priceless to those who DO LOVE you.

The worth of our lives comes not in what we do or who we


but by WHO WE ARE.

You are special- Don't EVER forget it."

If you do not pass this on, you may never know the

lives it touches, the hurting hearts it speaks to,

or the hope that it can bring.

Count your blessings, not your problems.

And remember: amateurs built the ark ...

professionals built the Titanic.

If God brings you to it - He will bring you through it.

Fun time!

this is a really funny email that my friend sent me....

This is a letter from one bar girl to another bar girl whose boyfriend she apparently stole. This was found in a Malate bar by a friend of the guy who sent me this e-mail. Enjoy it as much as I did!!!
Actual letter found in a bar in Malate:

To Marjie,
I am not surprise or wander why Dennis leave you. Why? What reason you can think about but you're very fat body. I'm thought before that Dennis only use me to his toy but sooner and later I'm realize that he really can't not beared or stomached to be with you anymore because at first, Dennis say he could not stand you're habit of making pakialam all his walks and always calling to their house what time he go home or this or that and then he say he get ashame to met you iether in school or in his family and then asking you to exercise you're very, very, very fat body but you hate it you thoughth you're the most prettiest girls he know about what do you think you are "Beautiful Girl" of Jose Mari Chan even you are beautiful face (to your think) you do not have the rigth to called me whatsoever or else different name one time or the other for the real purposed to insults my personality because I'm never call you names before iether in front of Dennis or in the backs of Dennis, but if you start already to calling me different name, I'm don't have any other choice but to called you other different name to like you are a PIG, FAT, OBESSED, OVERWIGHT AND UGLY SHAPE girl. Shame to you're body that is to a BUDING. You can't not blame Dennis for exchanging you to me because I'm am the more sexier than you when you look to us in the mirror. I'm repeat again that you are like Ike Lozada when she is a girl.


Ps. You say that I'm the bad breathe
But who is Dennis want to kissed.
Me or you? You or me?
And the final is me.

Saturday, February 26, 2005


this is one of the many e-mails that angel sent me for the past month. but this one is kinda different coz after reading this i realized lots of stuff. i wouldnt want to write it here coz it's really personal but i have my own little notebook where i write stuff that i keep to myself. it's kinda long but a very nice read :)

Sometimes, in our relentless efforts to find the person we love we fail to
recognize and appreciate the people who love us. We miss out on so many
beautiful things and simply because we allow ourselves to be enslaved by our
own selfish concerns. Go for the man of deeds and not for the man of words
for you will find rewarding happiness not with the man you love but the man
who loves you more. The best lovers are those who are capable of loving from
a distance, far enough to allow the other person to grow, but never too far
to feel the love deep within your being.

To let go of someone doesn't mean you have to stop loving, it only means that you allow that person to find his own HAPPINESS without expecting him to come back.
Letting go is not just setting the other person free, but it is also setting yourself free from all fears, bitterness, hatred, and anger that you keep in your heart. Do not let the bitterness rare away your strength and weaken your faith,
and never allow pain to dishearten you, but rather let you grow with
wisdom in bearing it. You may have found peace in just loving someone from a
distance not expecting anything in return. But be careful, for this can
sustain life but can never give enough room for us to grow. We can all
survive with just beautiful memories of the past but real peace and
happiness come only with open acceptance of what reality is today.

There comes a time in our lives when we chance upon someone so nice and we
just find ourselves getting so intensely attracted to that person. This
feeling soon become a part of our everyday lives and eventually consumes our
thoughts and actions. The sad part of it is when we begin to realize that this person feels nothing more for us than just friendship, or the feelings he or she might have for you is just too far from how you love that person
in return. We start our desperate attempt to get noticed and be closer but
in the end our efforts are still unrewarded and we end up being sorry for

You don't have to be bitter on love. What you need to learn is how to
accept the verdict of reality without being bitter or sorry for yourself.
Believe me, you would be better off giving that dedication and love to
someone more deserving. Don't let your heart run your life, be sensible
and let your mind speak for itself. Listen not only to your feelings but to
reason as well.

Always remember that if you lose someone today, it means that someone
better is coming tomorrow: If you lose love that doesn't mean that you failed in love. Cry, if you have to, but make it sure that the tears wash
away the hurt and the bitterness that the past has left with you. Let go of
yesterday and love will find its way back to you. And when it does, pray
that it may be the love that will stay and last a lifetime.

"When you lose someone... and you think you were the one who loved most,
between the two of you... he lost more. For someday you can love someone
the way that you loved him...But he will never be loved again the way
that you did."

Thursday, February 24, 2005

hulazei...busy day!!

i'm soooo tired! i started the day by waking up early! i took a bath, blowdried my hair, brushed my teeth, fixed my stuff, recieved a dose of chorva from my mom regarding school, drove to school *and gawd! it was so freakin traffic in Macapagal! grrr! so i plucked my eyebrows while i was stuck there..good thing i left early* i just arrived in time for the checking of attendance :D after my class i went straight to have a new I.D. printed because i lost my old one and it cost me Php 535! soo expensive for a school id! only to find out that my freakin' old i.d. is under the passenger's seat of my carrrr!!! (gosh! so stupid!! RawrRRR!). my fitting was scheduled at 9:30 a.m. and it was already 11:20 a.m. so i took the LRT/MRT route to the Agency. the fitting was fast so i finished early, but i had to stay in the office to talk to some people about my thesis. well i got lots of documents that will help me with my research. anyways, it was already 1:00 when i finished talking to SAGA people so i went to G4 to meet Aleck and his friends (they passed their resume in Levis). Aleck and I talked about my thesis, helped me with some important details and reminisced about our experience with HSBC (don't ask!). finally, our endless conversation ended and i went back to school to get my car and meet up with bon. we went to thomas & edith before going home. i wanted to have a massage at my gym's spa (so i can relax before working on my thesis....i'm dying so i have to look and feel good before they put me in my casket..hare hare hare) but my mom told me to wait for dad to get here so we can pamper ourselves altogether. (wee!) so i just took a bath and used the milk scrub that i got in greenhills, it smelled so sweet! *milky!* and now i'm here infront of the computer fixing my thesis and blogging (adiik!) hehe! :D

Wednesday, February 23, 2005

my Uncle Ruben

My dad's eldest bro, uncle Ruben died last Feb.1, 2005. He was killed by two men in front of my Lolo’s house in our province. The worst part is that my Lolo and Aunt saw everything! They were not able to react right away because they had no idea that the person that was being attacked was already my uncle. Of course it was already too late when they found out that it was my beloved uncle. Shocked be what he saw, my Lolo passed out and my aunt screamed and asked for help. But it was already too uncle looked at my aunt and closed his eyes...he's dead.

It’s just so depressing that a loved one had to die this way...he was very nice and he didn't have any enemies. The guys who murdered him were high on drugs so they did not even think about the consequences that they have to face after the incident. These guys were still young and had so much ahead of them but they have to pay for what they did. They have to suffer for taking the life of a man that did nothing to them. Some of the family members wanted to have them killed but then it wouldn’t be fair for my uncle. It would make things easy; it would save them from what they would experience inside the jail. I just told my mom that they have to suffer in jail, that there are other criminals who will give them a taste of hell and somehow avenge the death of my uncle.

I’m so sad that I was not able to make him feel how I loved him. Ever since I was a child he had been very nice to me coz I was "the" favorite pamangkin. I just feel so bad that I wasn’t able to attend his funeral because I had exams and modeling jobs. I wasn’t able to see even for the last time. But its ok coz at least in my memory, he will always be smiling at me.

Tuesday, February 22, 2005

Norah Jones

she will be visiting manila this march and i'm dying to get tickets for her concert....i just hope that somebody will take me to her concert.... :/
i'm listening to her songs right now and i feel like sleeping...

The nearness of you

It's not the pale moon that excites me
That thrills and delights me, oh no
It's just the nearness of you

It isn't your sweet conversation
That brings this sensation, oh no
It's just the nearness of you

When you're in my arms and I feel you so close to me
All my wildest dreams come true

I need no soft lights to enchant me
If you'll only grant me the right
To hold you ever so tight
And to feel in the night the nearness of you

Sunday, February 20, 2005


Your Brain is 73.33% Female, 26.67% Male

Your brain leans female

You think with your heart, not your head

Sweet and considerate, you are a giver

But you're tough enough not to let anyone take advantage of you!


-- Personality Disorder Test - Take It! --

funny, nonsense quizzes that i took today :D

Saturday, February 19, 2005

Black Magic Woman....

Got a black magic woman
Got a black magic woman.

I got a black magic woman
Got me so blind I can't see
That she's a black magic woman
She's tryin' to make a devil out of me.

Don't turn your back on me baby
Don't turn your back on me baby.

Yes, don't turn your back on me baby
Stop messin' round with your tricks
Don't turn your back on me baby
You just might pick up my magic sticks.

Got your spell on me baby
Got your spell on me baby.

Yes you got your spell on me baby
Turning my heart into stone
I need you so bad - magic woman
I can't leave you alone.

i used to be something like this....but i changed and did my very best to become a better person, i changed for the people i love, for the somple fact that i didnt want to hurt them anymore. but why is it that when you do your best to make someone happy they tend to just take it for granted? when the best things that you do doesnt get appreciated, the sweetest thoughts gets ignored and the hardest part is that the greatest effort that you put in your relationship becomes unnoticed. i guess this is just the way things go...i've been bad for a very long time and now i have to pay for the things that i have done wrong. i just hope that things go on smoothly. i hope...

Friday, February 18, 2005

Installing Love

Tech Support: Yes, ... how can I help you?

Customer: Well, after much consideration, I've
decided to install Love. Can you guide me though
the process?

Tech Support: Yes. I can help you. Are you ready
to proceed?

Customer: Well, I'm not very technical, but I think
I'm ready. What do I do first?

Tech Support: The first step is to open your Heart.
Have you located your Heart?

Customer: Yes, but there are several other
programs running now. Is it okay to install Love
while they are running?

Tech Support: What programs are running ?

Customer: Let's see, I have Past Hurt, Low Self-
Esteem, Grudge and Resentment running right

Tech Support: No problem, Love will gradually
erase Past Hurt from your current operating
system. It may remain in your permanent memory
but it will no longer disrupt other programs. Love
will eventually override Low Self-Esteem with a
module of its own called High Self-Esteem.
However, you have to completely turn off Grudge
and Resentment. Those programs prevent Love
from being properly installed. Can you turn those
off ?

Customer: I don't know how to turn them off. Can
you tell me how?

Tech Support: With pleasure. Go to your start
menu and invoke Forgiveness. Do this as many
times as necessary until Grudge and Resentment
have been completely erased.

Customer: Okay, done! Love has started installing
itself. Is that normal?

Tech Support: Yes, but remember that you have
only the base program. You need to begin
connecting to other Hearts in order to get the

Customer: Oops! I have an error message already.
It says, "Error - Program not run on external
components." What should I do?
Tech Support: Don't worry. It means that the Love
program is set up to run on Internal Hearts, but has
not yet been run on your Heart. In non-technical
terms, it simply means you have to Love yourself
before you can Love others.

Customer: So, what should I do?

Tech Support: Pull down Self-Acceptance; then
click on the following files: Forgive-Self; Realize
Your Worth; and Acknowledge your Limitations.

Customer: Okay, done.

Tech Support: Now, copy them to the "My Heart"
directory. The system will overwrite any conflicting
files and begin patching faulty programming. Also,
you need to delete Verbose Self-Criticism from all
directories and empty your Recycle Bin to make
sure it is completely gone and never comes back.

Customer: Got it. Hey! My heart is filling up with
new files. Smile is playing on my monitor and
Peace and Contentment are copying themselves
all over My Heart. Is this normal?

Tech Support: Sometimes. For others it takes
awhile, but eventually everything gets it at the
proper time. So Love is installed and running. One
more thing before we hang up. Love is Freeware.
Be sure to give it and its various modules to
everyone you meet. They will in turn share it with
others and return some cool modules back to you.

Customer: Thank you, God.

i got this from a message board that i usually visit. its a nice read so i decided to put it here in my blog

Thursday, February 17, 2005

HSBC Young I.T. Entrepreneur

My friend Aleck asked me if i wanted to join him for the HSBC thingie. this was last Dec of 2004, i did'nt want to join because i was busy with modelign and other stuff in school but he tole me that this was my chance to prove to myself that did not just have the beauty, but also the brain. because i got seduced by his challenge, i joined him. together with Yako (our adviser) and Patty Ortega (another model), we conceptualized and thought of ways to better improve our fashion industry. Then came the results of the first round, we were able to make it to the top 30! we were so happy that despite the number of students that hoped for the gold, we were able to make it to the first cut. we attended a business writing seminar in preparation for the second round, and again we made it to the cut! this time it was only 10 members who were qualified to continue to the next round. just a while ago we went to HSBC office for the interview. it was good and i hope we made an impression that the judges will never forget. i just wish that we make it to the final cut which will trim down the 10 teams to only 3. i keep on praying that we get to win the gold medal and become an HSBC Young I.T. Entrepreneur :D

i'm so tired of all the papers that i have to finish. but i guess it just time that i really focus on what i have to do or else it will just go back the way it was before.

Tuesday, February 15, 2005


Written and copyright © by Ron Holeman

My name is Marvin,
My helmet is green,
I'm flying to Earth,
In my Martian Machine.

I zoom to Earth quick,
I cruise on right down,
I get out my ray gun,
To blast every town.

The Earth it must go,
It stands in my way,
It's blocking my view,
Of the great Milky-way.

I can not stand it,
There are things I must see,
From my great planet Mars,
On my Martian TV.

My faithful dog K-9,
He's here by my side,
To help crush those Earthlings,
Who shiver and hide.

Oh darn it, oh drat,
Somethings not right,
I'm getting pummeled,
I must run, I can't fight.

It's the famous Duck Dodgers,
He's not strong, he's not big,
He's with his round little sidekick,
Porky the Pig.

But there is another,
Who's covered in fur,
His name is Bugs Bunny,
He'll get me for sure.

I'm back in my ship,
I fly back real fast,
This is a nightmare,
I'm sure it won't last.

They follow me still,
But I am to smart,
I will blow them to bits,
With my Illudiom dart.

Oh no, it's to late,
A death ray I see,
Mys ship is blown up,
My dog K-9 and me.

But I will regroup,
The Earth it will be mine,
If I can get rid of,
Bugs Bunny next time.

So watch out Bugs Bunny,
Duck Rodgers and friend,
For Marvin the Martian,
Will come back again.

Marvin! he's my all time favorite cartoon character!!!!! i just love this guy! i saw this poem on Carolyn Gargaro's page who i also a huge fan of marvin!

Monday, February 14, 2005

Love is all around...

"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy,
it does not boast, it is not proud.
It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered,
it keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres."
- 1 Corinthians 13

Today is Valentines Day ...
Happy Valentines Day Everybody!!

Love is such a simple and pure thing but many times we people make it too complicated. Ya ... Guess that is why we are imperfect.

Only God's love is perfect.
Dun you agree?

A Love Story

I trust in God’s unfailing love, for ever and ever. Psalm 52:8b

Around Valentine’s Day most people think about love.
With all of the media hype, even people who aren’t in love, think about love!
Here, however, is a great story about the depths of real love;
a love that goes far beyond romance; and a love that is instructive to all!

"It was a busy morning, about 8:30 a.m.,
when an elderly gentleman in his 80’s arrived
to have stitches removed from his thumb.
He stated that he was in a hurry as he had an appointment at 9:00 a.m.
I took his vital signs and had him take a seat
knowing it would be over an hour before someone would be able to see him.

I saw him looking at his watch and decided
since I was not busy with another patient
that I would evaluate his wound. It had healed well,
so I talked to one of the doctors and
got the needed supplies to remove his stitches.
While taking care of the wound we began a conversation.

I asked him if he had another doctor’s appointment that morning
as he was in such a hurry. He told me no,
but that he needed to go to the nursing home to eat breakfast with his wife.
I then inquired about her health.
He told me that she had been in the nursing home for awhile
and that she had Alzheimer’s Disease.
As we talked, I asked him if she would be worried if he was a bit late.
He replied that she no longer knew who he was
and that she had not recognized him in five years.
I was surprised, and asked him
why he was still going every morning to visit his wife
even though she didn’t know who he is.
He smiled and patted my hand and said,

'She doesn’t know me but I still know who she is.'

I tried to hold back tears as he left –
I had goose bumps on my arm –
and I thought to myself, 'That is the kind of love I want in my life.'"

We all want to be loved in that kind of way –
a love that remains strong and unchanged even when we don’t recognize it!
Thank God that He loves us in exactly in that way!
Though we may not recognize it, feel it, appreciate it or
even take it for granted,
God’s love for us never changes!
He is always there for us!
And God’s love for us sets the example of how we are to love others:
our spouses, children, close friends, casual friends –
and strangers alike.

As we celebrate another Valentine’s Day,
may you be reminded of God’s love and experience it in a new and fresh way –
and pass that same kind of love on to the loved ones in your life!


Kiss by kiss
By: emilia

You can’t believe
How did I succeed
I went where no ones gone before
I opened up your heart
And did took through the door
To forevermore

What did I do
I took my time with you
The other girls they moved too fast
I knew the way to make it last
Was take it slow
I let it grow

Kiss by kiss and
Baby touch by touch
Left you wanting me so much
Kiss by kiss is how I got you
To fall in love with me like this

Now here’s the key
I made you come to me
I didn’t run
I didn’t chase
I played it cool
I gave you space
Before I knew
I was holding you

Made every kiss
Just so hard to resist
I always left you wanting more
Careful not to give it all
I’ve played it smart
I won your heart

Kiss by kiss and
Baby touch by touch
Left you wanting me so much
Kiss by kiss is how I got you
To fall in love with me like this

Night by night and
Baby day by day
You go to feel that special way
Kiss by kiss is how I got you
To fall in love with me like this

I wanted you from the start
You know it was so hard
To keep it locked inside me
Afraid to scare you so
Instead I let it show

Kiss by kiss oh
Baby touch by touch

Kiss by kiss and
Baby touch by touch
Left you wanting me so much
Kiss by kiss is how I got you
To fall in love with me like this

Night by night and
Baby day by day
You go to feel that special way
Kiss by kiss is how I got you
To fall in love with me like this

Oh yeah
Kiss by kiss

i like this song so much! i'm still up coz i'm writing to my bunny. i got this really big valentines card that i'm supposed to give him tom. :D i'm so happy we are still together amidst all the problems and obstacles that we went through together. i got him this fluffy pillow and a cute room accent. i'm planning to re decorate his room that's why every month i get him something that he could put in his room. well i still have to finish my card and wrap the gift :)


i spent the whole day fixing all my stuff. as i looked for my setcards i found pictures! ha! well happy memories started pouring back in...i smiled when i saw pictues of my long time friends, classmates, new found friends, co models, and my bunny. then i realized i was not getting any younger and i still have so many things to do in my life. so i immediately packed my stuff up and threw away those pics that reminded me of the worst days of my life. i sorted out the pictures that i am going to put in a scrapbook! wee! another fun activity for me :D

Sunday, February 13, 2005

Sleeping Styles

a friend sent this to me through my yahoo mail. its really nice but not entirely true some of the positions here are just normal sleeping positions but they spiced it up by adding some cute captions.

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Saturday, February 12, 2005

All about love

Love Task #7
"Have I Told You Lately..."

When was the last time you told your partner how you feel about them? The passing, "I love you" on your way out to work doesn't count. When was the last time you sat your partner down and told them face-to-face exactly how you feel? This week's task is about doing just that.

Each day this week make it a point to do the following:

kiss at least three times
have at least one 30 second kiss, or longer
compliment your partner on one thing
give at least one hug
say, "I love the way you..." about something they are doing at least once
ask them how their day went
wish them a good day with a good morning kiss
say, "I love you" at least three times

One day this week make it a point to sit down with your partner and tell them face-to-face how you feel about them. Make it extra special by planning a romantic evening.

Some people find it easier to express themselves through the written word. You may want to share your feelings in a letter instead.

>>> i found this article and i decided to put it here as a reminder of the things that i have to do to make my husband feel more special and to make him feel how much i love him. this is just making up for all the pain that i have caused, the problems and the sleepy nights that he had because i was not being myself. now that i have fixed a big part in my heart i want to focus on my husband, give him everything that i can, make him the king of my kingdom and the love of my entire life

Moving On...


Just thinking of him drives me really wild
Oh my goodness i think i'm gonna die
Eyes can be the sweetest and looks so kind
Makes my mind wander, and i dont know why
His hair, like shiny shadow on my back
Gets me to turn around to stare at that
Dimples so deep, as deep as the ocean
Looks like tiny whirlpools in my own mind
He has this long, slender and pointed nose
That i love to kiss with my lips so cold
His teeth so white like the clouds in the sky
That shines like silver, makes my mouth water
I'd like to stay and make magic with him
So he can feel how much my love is true

i composed this poem like 5 years ago i just came across this poem again when i was throwing some of my old stuff the other day. i felt the need to throw some of my well kept mamorabilias coz keeping it would'nt help me forget about somebody i used to dearly love. i guess i will just let time heal all the pain and angst that i have felt towards that person. for years we have loved each other but something changed the paths that we were supposed to take and led us both to another destination. its just so sad that someone so dear just leaves you hanging. i know its hard to tell the person you once loved that what you both had was already gone but pretending that the love is still there is much worse. i just wish that he could have just told me rather than leaving me in the gray area. oh well, life must go on. i publish this poem for the last time as a memory of what was once a very beautiful part of my life.


i feel it deep inside me
i wanna ride it
i can't fight it
i might as well rely on the drumbeat
dj pumps a low-end frequency
i can't hide it
i wont deny it
cause i'm addicted to drums
and i'm a slave to the dark beat

this is what i'm listening to right now...i remember our bora, halo, static, vbar...etc days

i've been really really really busy this past week. i did shows, skipped class, got drunk, smoked weed, watched friends, played domimos, studied for my logic exam, danced my heart out, cried for my uncle's death, called my dad and told him that i love him, spent the whole day with my bunny, play with my doggie, tried wall climbing, starved myself, killed somebody and buried his body in our backyard...

after my uncle was killed outside our house in bora, i told myself that life is really too short. i know i could die any minute now but i'm not afraid. i'm not that selfish not to think of those people who still need me but i'll be very glad to look after them up there or down under.

i know i have been a bad girl but now that i'm getting older i know i'm getting better as a person. so far i have fixed some things in my life but there are still some unfinished business that i have to work with with the remaining days of my life. i'm sure that even if i dont et to finish everything i'm glad that i lived my life the way i wanted it.


Kotts - Friday, April 3, 2009

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