Friday, July 30, 2010

Signs from above

I always ask for signs from the Lord.. i believe that in some ways we are connected and that whenever i am confused, sad or happy he is always there for me...

just this evening... i found out something that i wasn't supposed to know but i did for some reason and it gave me a great deal of pain.. i was a bit lucky that i was staying in my bestfriends flat and that we are going to sleep on the same bed.. her presence made me strong and her warmth calmed me down.. i felt like bursting into tears but i'm really glad that she's here with me so i was able to avoid that..

so then i prayed.. i asked the lord what i should do.. if i should keep waiting or just move on and let go.. i kept silent for a while then i returned to browsing on my facebook page.. i checked this application about what god wants you to know... i opened it and read "his" message :

On this day, God wants you to know...

... that you can be an echo of your past, or the glory of your future. Past is connected to future through the present. At this very moment, at every moment, you are choosing to carry on the past with all its troubles on your shoulders, OR to let it go and see bright future pull your forward. Choose wisely.

there... i got my signal almost immediately... call me crazy but that's exactly what i asked for... though i was still the one to choose it was almost written there... i just needed to let go of the baggages and let the bright future pull me forward! well it was just common sense written in a better manner.. but there are times that when we are troubled, we could our decisions with so many things.. but we always have the lord by our side and i am glad that he is right here with me.. please guide my heart lord for everything that i do... i offer it to you

Sunday, July 18, 2010

My Little Sofia

its been a while since i last blogged something about my life.. i guess for a time i have lost myself trying to change for what i thought was right. but then it was not really change that i needed, it was just something that i "thought" would be better to do in order to prove to myself that i have properly matured... and i was wrong...

its not that i haven't matured or anything, its just that there are certain levels of maturity that haven't reached yet and i'm still on the path to that self-fulfillment. i would always think about my future but i never really took the big leap into achieving my dreams.

i'm actually a simple person.. i really never dreamed of becoming the president of a huge multinational company, or a world class model or even joining showbusiness.. all i wanted was to have a simple life..

a husband that loves me dearly, children that i will take good care of, and a dog that will play with my kids.. i also want a house with a nice lawn where my kids could play and me and my husband can cook bbq.. i want a ferrari or a porsche 911 and a simple 3.0 carat diamond engagement ring.. ( hahaha! )

now i'm starting all over again.. reorganizing my thoughts.. contemplating on my past mistakes (that i don't ever want to make again).. saving up for the future and most of all paraying to the lord god that he grant me my simple wishes (if he includes the 3.0 carat diamond ring i would really be happier.. hehe)

i'm on another journey through life (my nth chance at it).. my path to self rediscovery and the quest for my own happiness.. this time i am traveling with someone who i will love forever.. my little sofia...


Kotts - Friday, April 3, 2009

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