Friday, March 25, 2005


i'm in BORA! whooo!! its really nice staying here for the holy least after months of hard work i get to relax and bask in the sun! wooohoooo! anyways, i went out last night with my cousin shelly....

Saturday, March 19, 2005



she can imagine

going back to...

and one who reminds

her how far she has come.


...enough money within her

control to move out and

rent a place of her own

even if she never wants

to or needs to...


...something perfect to wear if

the employer or date of her dreams

wants to see her in an hour...


. a youth she's content

to leave behind...


...a past juicy enough that

she's looking forward to

retelling it in her old age....


...a set of screwdrivers, a

cordless drill, and a black

lace bra...

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE friend who always makes

her laugh ... and one who lets

her cry...


...a good piece of furniture

not previously owned by anyone

else in her family...


...eight matching plates, wine

glasses with stems, and a recipe

for a meal that will make her

guests feel honored.



...a feeling of control over

her destiny...


.how to fall in love without

losing herself...

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW... to quit a job,

break up with a lover,

and confront a friend

without ruining the friendship...


...when to try harder ... and

when to walk away...


...that she can't change the

length of her calves, the width

of her hips, or the nature of her



...that her childhood may not

have been perfect...but its



...what she would and wouldn't

do for love or more...

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW... to live alone... even if

she doesn't like it...


...whom she can trust,

whom she can't,

and why she shouldn't

take it personally...


...where to go...

be it to her best friend's kitchen


or a charming inn in the woods...

when her soul needs soothing...


...what she can and can't

accomplish in a day...

a month...and a year...

Friday, March 18, 2005

porsche, me and pixs

i was playing with my cam when i decided to take pics of porsche....he was so cute! and it seemed like he wanted his picture to be taken so took pics.....lots of pics! and i posted it in my photoblog i also posted pics of Zander the boy wonder Sison (my inaanak). i like taking pics so i always bring my i took pictures of myself! hehe! nyoork!

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Wednesday, March 16, 2005


i just got home...i'm so tired. i was out the whole day coz i went to the bank with my dad, left home early coz our call time in meralco theater for the fashion show was 2pm. i was surprised that i got there early. i was the third to get there (weehee!) the show started at around 7:30 pm and ended at around 10:30. this was supposed to be a fund raising concert for a particular non-profit organization that helps the less fortunate. (but of course we got paid) anyways, this has been a great day for me...i was able to talk my dad into buying new tires for my car, i have money because of the show that i just did, Runway productions called to inform me that i have shows for the Philippine Fashion Week this last week of march, my defense schedule has been moved to next week, the designer allowed me to borrow her really cool semi-corporate muslim inspired outfit that i can use for my defense dad didnt get mad when i got home late! weehee!!!!!! eventhough i experience physical and mental fatigue its ok because everything that i did today was worth it! :D holy week is coming soon and i cant wait to go to boracay!!!! weeee!!!

aleck, me and patty = team IMARA
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Tuesday, March 15, 2005

love of my life

Love Of My Life


Oh, love of my life destined forever
I will be right here by your side
No falling tears when we're together
You know the joy you bring to me


There'll be no other we'll share as lovers
Right from the heart up from my mind
To your soul I will give it to you
My every little thing that I'm
more than willing I will give to you

Forever starts from now I promise you
Loving you is all that I can do
No one can take it away from me
Nobody but you...

Now is the time, stars will be bright
Our bodies will groove on to the night
Come take my hand, then we will fly high
Come on baby hear me say it

(Repeat Refrain & Chorus)

There'll be no time for sad goodbyes
Without you here I can't get by
Don't you go away...

>>>>hayyyy.....kaka miss! sad! but then maybe its just not meant to be. i wouldnt want to wait for something that i know would never be mine. its sooo frustrating! but what am i going to do? i know i have moved on, i know that i still love him and i have already accepted the fact that its oooooooover for him. i keep on telling myself these things but something inside just can hear it. i need a strong wind to blow me away..far far away...its not that easy but i wish this wind comes my way soon....i wish! :(

Monday, March 14, 2005

this is the day..........

whoa! after 48 hours of being awake.....i will finally be able to feel the comfort of my own bed, gigantic pillow and marvin (the martian! lolz).

i was awake for 2 days in a row and all i did was sit in front of the computer and work on my thesis ( it's just funny that i still have time to update my blog :D )


Sunday, March 13, 2005


isnt it just annoying when some people easily forget? gawd! after several years of companionship they just do these things to you? i guess the devil can really change people. you met this person who is so sweet, caring and super nice but after that particular person becomes friends with the devil, things immediately change! grabe lang the nerve of these people! i know i have made really big mistakes in my past but those mistakes doesnt make me less of a person. i'm still who i am and these mistakes are helping me change for the better.

siguro lang i was wrong when i hoped that things would still change, that we would still be friends and that eventually we will be able to fulfill the promise that we made for each other that we will grow old togehter. even if these are just dreams it would still be far much better if we were still friends. he even promised me that even if we have our own families, we will still look after each other share our thoughts and comsult with each other about our problems. he probabably said all those things before because he still loved me but now that his love is gone..i would be hoping for nothing. i dont want to be a hypocrite and say that i dont love him anymore, but there will be a special place in my heart where he will always be.

Friday, March 11, 2005


i think i'm dying....for months now, i can feel this pain in my chest. i'm constantly checking it to see if the lumps stay there. there are a lot of times that it gets really painful. i'm too scared to go to the doctor to have it checked so i just searched for it in google and here's what i found:

Try to get in the habit of doing a breast self-examination once a month to familiarize yourself with how your breasts normally look and feel. Examine yourself several days after your period ends, when your breasts are least likely to be swollen and tender. If you are no longer having periods, choose a day that's easy to remember, such as the first or last day of the month.

Don't panic if you think you feel a lump. Most women have some lumps or lumpy areas in their breasts all the time. Eight out of ten breast lumps that are removed are benign, non-cancerous.

Breasts tend to have different "neighborhoods." The upper, outer area—near your armpit—tends to have the most prominent lumps and bumps. The lower half of your breast can feel like a sandy or pebbly beach. The area under the nipple can feel like a collection of large grains. Another part might feel like a lumpy bowl of oatmeal.

What's important is that you get to know the look and feel of YOUR breasts' various neighborhoods. Does something stand out as different from the rest (like a rock on a sandy beach)? Has anything changed? Bring to the attention of your doctor any changes in your breasts that:

last over a full month's cycle, OR

seem to get worse or more obvious over time
Knowing how your breasts usually look and feel may also help you avoid needless biopsies—a procedure in which the doctor takes a small sample of breast tissue and examines it under a microscope.

reading this made me feel better but still i'm not sure about being really safe. maybe i'll go visit the doctor...maybe not.

here's the link to
Breast Self Exam

Thursday, March 10, 2005

Relax just do it!

for the first time in weeks i was able to sleep early, eat the right food at the right time, watch tv and just RELAX! lolz! i watched oprah and this was an episode where she gace CARS! ~whoa! it was soooo cool...the audience started crying i felt an overwhelming feeling inside of me that made me cry too. there are times that crying makes me feel so light so i just allowed myself to cry....and after that? i felt somehow wonderful :D and what does this have to do with the names? nothin! lol
i was just curious of what these generators will give me :D try it!

Your Porn Star Name is: Candy Coxx

Your Hippie Chick Name is: Aurora

Your Drag Queen Name is: Sofonda Cox

Tuesday, March 08, 2005

About me tests

based on the tests i took...

You Are a Dalmation Puppy

Kind, bright, and very energetic.
Firemen love to pat your little head.

Your Dominant Intelligence is Bodily-Kinesthetic Intelligence

You are naturally athletic and coordinated, good at making your mind and body work together.
Sports are fun and easy for you, especially those requiring good hand - eye coordination.
There's also a good chance you're a great dancer, or good at expressing yourself through body language.
You learn best by doing, and you feel like you've always got to be moving (even if it's just your hands).

You would make a good athlete, physical education teaches, dancer, actor, firefighter, or artisan.

You Are Not Scary

Not Scary!

Everyone loves you. Isn't that sweet?

You Are a Losing Lottery Ticket!

Full of hope and promise.
But in the end, a cheap letdown.

You Were Nice This Year!

You're an uber-perfect person who is on the top of Santa's list.
You probably didn't even *think* any naughty thoughts this year.
Unless you're a Mormon, you've probably been a little too good.
Is that extra candy cane worth being a sweetheart for 365 days straight?

tests....tests....and more tests

You are 87% Aries
Out of 56606 people the average score was 61%

You Are In a Good Mood

Today, you're feeling pretty together and happy.

While not everything is going you're way, you're keeping things in perspective.

And it seems like things are looking up for you!

You are

You Will Die at Age 64


You're pretty average when it comes to how you live...

And how you'll die as well.

Sunday, March 06, 2005


since i have been too busy with my deadly thesis i never really had the chance to take care of my booody anymore....*awww poor me*....but this afternoon wa one of the most liberating day of my life! i was able to go to a spa!!!!!!! wee! sawaap massagee! plus i had my nails done! *and foot spa too*. i really had a wonderful time!! after all the pampering, i went to a friend's bday (inuman na!) then went home to slave infront of the pc again :D

Friday, March 04, 2005

checkin' out mah brain

Your Brain Usage Profile:

Auditory : 50%
Visual : 50%
Left : 50%
Right : 50%

No matter which side of your brain is dominant,
M i n d W a r e
can strengthen your emotional brain power by helping you understand how
you feel about yourself.

paulette, you are one of those rare individuals who are perfectly "balanced" in both your hemispheric tendencies and your sensory learning preferences. However, there is both good news and bad news.

A problem with hemispheric balance is that you will tend to feel more conflict than someone who has a clearly established dominance. At times the conflict will be between what you feel and what you think but will also involve how you attack problems and how you perceive information. Details which will seem important to the right hemis- phere will be discounted by the left and vice versa, which can present a hindrance to learning efficiently.

In the same vein, you may have a problem with organization. You might organize your time and/or space only to feel the need to reorganize five to ten weeks later.

On the positive side, you bring resources to problem-solving that others may not have. You can perceive the "big picture" and the essential details simultaneously and maintain the cognitive perspective required. You possess sufficient verbal skills to translate your intuition into a form which can be understood by others while still being able to access ideas and concepts which do not lend themselves to language.

Your balanced nature might lead you to second-guess yourself in artistic endeavors, losing some of the fluidity, spontaneity and creativity that otherwise would be yours.

With your balanced sensory styles, you process data alternately, at times visually and other times auditorially. This usage of separate memories may cause you to require more time to integrate information or re-access it. When presented with situations which force purely visual or purely auditory learning, increased anxiety is likely and your learning efficiency will decrease.

Your greatest benefit is that you can succeed in multiple fields due to the great plasticity and flexibility you possess.

love story


My husband is an engineer by profession. I love him for his steady
nature, and I love the warm feeling when I lean against his broad shoulders.
Three years of courtship and now, two years into marriage, I would
have to admit that I am getting tired of it. The reasons of me loving him
before has now transformed into the cause of my restlessness. I am a
sentimental woman and extremely sensitive when it comes to a relationship
and my feelings. I yearn for romantic moments, like a little girl yearning
for candy. My husband is my complete opposite, his lack of sensitivity, and
the inability of bringing romantic moments into our marriage has
disheartened me about love. One day, I finally decided to tell him my
decision, and I wanted a divorce.
"Why?" he asked, shocked. "I am tired, ther e are no reasons for
everything in the whole world!" I answered. He kept silent the whole night,
seems to be in deep thought. My feeling of disappointment only increased.
Here was a man who can't even express his predicament, what else can I hope
from him?
And finally he asked me "What can I do to change your mind?" Somebody
said it right, it's hard to change a person's personality, and I guess I
have started losing faith in him. Looking deep into his eyes I slowly
answered "Here is the question: 'If you can answer and convince my heart, I
will change my mind. Let's say, I want a flower located on the face of a
mountain cliff, and we both are sure picking the flower will cause your
death, will you do it for me?'" He said, "I will give you your answer
. "My hope just sank by listening to his response.
I woke up the next morni ng to find him gone, and saw a piece of
paper with his scratchy handwriting, underneath a milk glass, on the dining
table near the front door that [reads]:

My Dear,

I would not pick that flower for you, but please allow me to explain
the reasons further"
The first line was already breaking my heart. I continued reading.
"When you use the computer you always mess up the software programs,
and you cry in front of the screen, I have to save my fingers to that I can
help to restore the programs.
"You always leave the house keys behind, thus I have to save my legs
to rush home to open the door for you.
"You always have the cramps whenever your "good friend" approaches
every month, I have to save my palms so that I can calm the cramps in your
"You like to stay indoors, and I worry that you will be infected by
infantile autism. I have to save my mouth to tell you jokes and stories to
cure your boredom.
"You always stare at the computer, and that will do nothing good for
your eyes, I have to save my eyes so that when we grow old, I can help clip
your nails, and help remove those annoying white hairs. So I can also hold
your hand while strolling down the beach, as you enjoy the sunshine and the
beautiful sand and tell you the color of flowers, just like the color of
the glow on your young face
. "Thus, my dear, unless I am sure that there is someone who loves you
more than I do I could not pick that flower yet and die."
My tears fell on the letter, and blurred the ink of his handwriting.
And as I continue on reading:
. "Now, that you have finished reading my answer, if you are satisfied,
please open the front door f or I am standing outside bringing your favorite
bread and fresh milk."
I rush to pull open the door, and saw his anxious face, clutching
tightly with his hands, the milk bottle and loaf of bread
Now I am very sure that no one will ever love me as much as he does,
and I have decided to leave the flower alone.

* FROM: Leahlyn A. Guloy, Beautiful Story (excerpt)

a very beautiful story...i just wish that my husband would be somebody like this.

still not over?

A Poem for You
by miguel

Weeks of memories have passed,
and most of it are not yet trashed.
I want to cry and shout out my blue,
but yet,im right here,writing a poem for you.

Yes!You have hurt me so much.
So much pain you can't imagine as such.
But guess what? I still love you
I still love you like my baby blue.

That's why im right here,writing a poem for you
A poem that wishes that i can get through.
I know that you're over me, but im not!
I still love you a whole lot.

It really hurts me when i pretend
and i don't know if i can contend.
I have pretended alot of times
and i hope they're no crime.

I pretended not to like you,
and all i got was "choo!"
I pretended that I don't care,
and they said that i don't share.

I pretended not to love you,
and guess what?
i didn't get through.
that's why im right here,writing a poem for you.

I hope this poem will make a difference,
because i don't want to get drench.
I still love you
and i hope you still do.

If i don't love you,
then i definitely still feel something for you,
because if i don't feel anything for you,
why would i make a poem?
a poem especially made for you.

read this poem! i guess miguel and i have had the same problems. but now i guess i'm ok and i have moved on. i'm focusing on my school and career but still there are dead moments that i think of our happy times together. i just wish he can read this so he will know how i felt before. now i am stronger and i wont let things go wrong again. i'm in love and i hope it never ends

Wednesday, March 02, 2005


Does your name begin with: P

You are very conscious of social proprieties. You wouldn't think of Doing anything that might harm your image or Reputation. Appearances count. Therefore, you require a good-looking partner. You also require an intelligent partner. Oddly enough, you may view your partner as your enemy...a good fight stimulates those vibes. You are relatively free of hang- ups.You are willing to experiment and try new ways of doing things.You are very social and sensual; you enjoy flirting and need a good deal of physical gratification.

just another blog filler..i'm really not in the mood to write down my personal thoughts lately..i'm so busy with school work (which is my thesis) and i'm still doing fashion shows that take up most of my time. time just runs so fast that i cant just keep up with it that easy. i'm already old and i still have so much things to do..i have'nt reached all my goals yet but at least i was able to do the things that i wanted to do. well, i will just keep on concentrating with the things that i have to do so i can move on to another level in my life. good luck to me!

Tuesday, March 01, 2005

poems from the heart

i voted for this poems in loving i would just like to share it with everybody. its really nice and i admire the creativeness of the authors :)

Our Souls Touched
by Olivia Archer

The warmth caressed my skin,
The energy rushed through by body like a raging river.
Our hands touched.

The sweet taste of love floated through my mouth
Like a sky full of soft clouds.
Our lips touched.

Together as one, in magical symphonic harmony,
We danced to the whispering song only we could hear.
Our bodies touched.

Welcoming the undeniable feeling of complete wholeness,
Without words, gestures or thoughts.
Embracing a moment in time shared only by us.
Our Souls Touched.

Softly Together
by Julie Scholes

My lust for you is burning within,
my body with yours I want to begin,
a warm soft fire and candles aglow,
your body so sensual all over I know,
I run my fingers upon your skin,
and set you alight from desire within,
your heart reaching mine with a soft caress,
and our spirits entwine with such finesse,
the air is filled with a warm bouquet,
and there entwined together we lay,
your breath is warm your mouth is sweet,
your whisper I here makes us so complete,
desire flows like the spirit on the wind,
and our passion for each we cannot pretend,
together we float on a mysterious cloud,
and the emotion we feel can be heard aloud,
your lust with mine is immense and deep,
as we lay side by side in a beautiful sleep,
the candles flicker the fire aglow
and there we lay together I know.

by Kimberly Cahill

Your fingers lightly brush over my body
Feeling my every curve
Feeling my body quiver under your touch
Your mouth meets with mine in a kiss
Our tongues finding one another
Probing, feeling and exploring
Your voice whispers in my ear
Making my body tingle all over
I feel myself surrendering
You gaze deeply into my eyes
And I gaze right back at you, smiling
Knowing what I want so badly...YOU
You read my mind so well
And without a single spoken word
We are making sweet love all night long
Our bodies intertwining together
Becoming one and exploring new territory
Feelings that were never felt before this night
We are breathing heavy and sweating
Moving together so perfectly
Our hearts beating as one
In an almost rhythmic dance
With each thrust the moans get louder
Finally coming to a wonderful climax
You hold me tightly to your chest
Running your fingers through my hair
We fall asleep in each others arms
And dream sweet dreams about our
First night togetherblack lace
our hearts race
in your eyes an everlasting shine
take me down with a long passionate kiss
as you undo my bra
deliberately going slow
making me happy only
keeping your shiny eyes on me
strokes long and slow
in your eyes that certain glow
running my hands all over your chest and face
aside is black lace
a sheet of sweat I feel on your skin
as you move slowly deep within
moans and your name deep with pleasure
this is something always to treasure
lovemaking to the final T
you make it good always for me
then your body lay still on top of me
we have reached pure ecstacy
black lace I let you possess
to remind you of our closeness

Lost in Thought
by Jennifer Schroeder

Strangers to the touch
Lovers in the heart
Imagination the playground

Vivid images of touching bodies
Warm, wet, deep kisses
Tongues paired in a romantic dance

Hands running longingly up and down waiting bodies
Hot breath against her ear
Warm tongue caressing his

Lips searching out the mysteries of the flesh
Soft spots unearthed
Passions unleashed
Faster goes the pace
Penetration, undulation, fascination
Deeper inside, higher the ride

Fervor, mania, love ready to explode
Hands grasping, teeth biting, nails sliding
Kisses sloppy, sweat rolling, mind blowing

Beautiful, hot, vivid images
Perfection, anticipation, adoration


Kotts - Friday, April 3, 2009

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