just this evening... i found out something that i wasn't supposed to know but i did for some reason and it gave me a great deal of pain.. i was a bit lucky that i was staying in my bestfriends flat and that we are going to sleep on the same bed.. her presence made me strong and her warmth calmed me down.. i felt like bursting into tears but i'm really glad that she's here with me so i was able to avoid that..
so then i prayed.. i asked the lord what i should do.. if i should keep waiting or just move on and let go.. i kept silent for a while then i returned to browsing on my facebook page.. i checked this application about what god wants you to know... i opened it and read "his" message :
On this day, God wants you to know...
... that you can be an echo of your past, or the glory of your future. Past is connected to future through the present. At this very moment, at every moment, you are choosing to carry on the past with all its troubles on your shoulders, OR to let it go and see bright future pull your forward. Choose wisely.
there... i got my signal almost immediately... call me crazy but that's exactly what i asked for... though i was still the one to choose it was almost written there... i just needed to let go of the baggages and let the bright future pull me forward! well it was just common sense written in a better manner.. but there are times that when we are troubled, we could our decisions with so many things.. but we always have the lord by our side and i am glad that he is right here with me.. please guide my heart lord for everything that i do... i offer it to you