Finding Me...

I haven't written in my blog for almost a year now... been busy i guess...

Turning 30 was busier than i had expected... i did everything that i wanted to do while i was still in my 20's coz i know that things will be different.. but it brought back the happy side of me.. all i can say is that when i turned 30.. i became 18!

There had been a whirlwind of emotions.. life changing decisions have been made and I picked my life up where i left it several years ago... here in MACAU

I spent the remaining months of my being in the 20's zone here and I started to get to know myself again... to live my life as ME... to have dreams of my own.. to do things i want to do.. to live life as i used to...

I started going out again... drinking.. partying.. i was like that before (during my younger years).. but i came to the point that i didnt want any of that anymore.. i'm growing old.. its not the scene that used to be so familiar.. so natural...

now all i wanted was just to stay at home... hang out with my friends and just talk about stuff in general.. ugh i knew it was one sign of aging.. but i loved it! every once in a while i get my "calling" tho.. there were times that i would go out with friends and have pretty fun party nights and it was more fun than the regular ones that i had...

I started working out again... I wanted to enroll in pole dancing classes but they dont have anything like that here so i just took belly dance classes it was the next best thing to what i wanted i guess... I joined yoga classes and even tried learning hip hop the proper way and i had sooo much fun! I would jog every once in a while or dance to my heart's content until i get tired and sweaty...

My energy was renewed.. i started becoming me again.. it was far from what i was when i entered what they called magical realm of fantasies.. those kind that would blind you from the truth, cloud your judgement and turn the happy princess into a bad bad witch and eventually turn you into a stone cold bitch.

I was freed from the prison that i embraced so dearly... from all the sadness in my heart and the emptiness in my soul.. I found me... the "real" me...

I'm back! watch out... once again I will conquer the world... now with a little angel behind my back... together we will journey through the center of the earth...